28

28 will be significant to me starting today...

some life changing decisions will depend on that 28...

i'm giving everything...

with the help of God i know i can achieve this

set you free

sa nangyari kagabi...july 28, 2006

we often fool ourselves
and say that it's love
only cause when it's gone
we end up being lonely

so how are we to know
that it just isn't so
that we just have to let each other go

there were many times
when we shared precious moments
but later realized they were stolen moments

so how are we to know
that it just wasn't so
that we just had to let each other go

if loving you is all that means to me
when being happy is all i hope you'd be
then loving you must mean
i really have to set you free

each day remains my love for you
keeps growing stronger
but everytime we meet
make leaving you so much harder

so how are we to know
that this just wasn't so
that we just have to let each other go

if loving you is all that means to me
when being happy is all i hope you'd be
then loving you must mean
i really have to set you free

letting go is not an easy task
when smiling feels like
i must wear this lonely mask
it hurts deep inside
and i just cannot hide
that there's anguish at the thought
that we should have to part

if loving you is all that means to me
when beign happy is all i hope you'd be
then loving you must mean
i really have to set you free

if loving you is all that means to me
when being happy is all i hope you'd be
then loving you must mean
i really have to set you free

10

i got only 30 minutes to do this...why...you'll know later...

- a new policy was release yesterday sa office. actually hindi na rin to bago sa akin kasi during the old days may mga ganun policy din ako na encounter at part na to ng corporate world. 8:30 am daw ang pasok...oks, no problem with me...maaga na rin naman ako dumadating sa office. remove unauthorized softwares...ito yung medyo ayaw ko...kailangan talaga i-remove yung mga software kahit yung yahoo at msn messenger...i tried using yung web msn messenger kaso parang hindi gumagana...try ko ulit later.1 hour lunch break...the usual...pero may issue ako dito na hindi nila na sagot...magulo pa rin. english should be used inside the company premesis...kahit yung ka usap ko sa kabaling linya ay hindi marunong mag tagalog kailangan ko pa rin ka usapin ng english or ang isang option ay lumabas ako ng office para maka usap ko siya ng tagalog...tingnan natin ngayon yung mga tsekwa sa office kung mag chi-chinese pa din. proper casual wear...ito ok to sa akin kasi part ng casual wear ay t-shirt at jeans...so puwede na ako mag jeans at t-shirt araw-araw...yahoooooooo! no personal IDD...oks lang...hindi naman ako nag o-overseas call...hehehe.

- na tanggal na pala si gayle nerva sa singpore idol. gayle is half pinoy half something na nakasama sa top
12.

- last night pinanood namin (w/ my wifey) and replay ng ms. universe na ginanap sa los angeles. sa umpisa
ang bet ko ay yung ms. mexico...sobrang ganda kasi at sexy pa...pero nung umabot na sa top 5 ang naging bet
ko ay si ms. japan. hindi ata naka sama sa top 10 ang ms. mexico...sayang. regading ms. japan...puwedeee
to...panalo...dapat ito ang naging ms. universe at hindi yung ms. puerto rico. hindi naman kagandahan yung
ms. puerto rico...d' bomb pa rin yung ms. japan....ooohhh fetish and fantasies...hehehe... (Note: hiniram ko lang yung picture ng ms. japan sa website ng ms. universe)

- until now hindi pa rin nag rereply yung team lead ko regarding dun sa leave ko. i-email ko na lang direct
yung manager dito para mag paalam. wala naman sila magagawa dahil na sa contract ko naman yun na may VL ako. 2 days lang naman ang hinihingi ko at hindi naman ako uuwi ng pinas...dito lang naman ako sa
singapore...punta kami ng sentosa...at gusto ko makita yung Tanjong beach...maganda daw...

- regarding sa bawal na ang msn at yahoo messenger dito sa office...try nyo to...www.meebo.com...laking tulong...na laman ko lang to sa ka officemate ko....

at bakit 10...kasi yan yung bus number na sinasakyan ko tuwing 7:05 am everyday papuntang office...

useless...again

add ko lang dun sa useless post ko...

sports - i know how to play basic basketball, basic volleyball, basic badminton, basic bowling, basic table tennis, at kung anu-ano pa...pero basic pa din...pak shet...kita mo na...wala talagang kwenta...

The Serenity Prayer

"God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, courage to change the things I can, and the wisdom to know the difference."

se.ren.i.ty (noun)
- the quality or state of being serene

se.rene (adjective)
Etymology: from Latin serenus clear, cloudless, untroubled

- clear and free of storms or unpleasant change
- shining bright and steady

Note: thanks to www.m-w.com for the definition

im trying to memorize and inject into my current state of life this prayer.

i got this from Francis M's blog. Big shout out to you brother...hehehe feeeling close :)

useless...

thats what i'm thinking or actually yan yung umiikot sa utak ko ngayon at nung mga nakaraan na araw...

ano ba talaga ang purpose ko dito sa mundong ibabaw? bakit ba nandito ako? kung nandito ako, ano ba dapat kong gawin? do i have a mission?...yan ang gumugulo ngayon sa isipan ko...dahil dito...na isip ko...may talent ba ako...i mean yung kakaiba...o cge kahit hindi na yung kakaiba...kahit yung common na lang...isa-isahin natin...

kumanta - ito wala talaga ako nito...kahit anong gawin ko wala talaga ako sa tono...unlike my wife na maganda ang boses. sana hindi mag mana si alexx sa akin...hehehe...

sumayaw - ito meron ako dati...dati pa yun...nung elementary pa ako...nung nag high school at hanggang ngayon wala na...hindi na lumabas...

writing - isa pa din to...kesyo ma pa filipino or english hirap ako isulat...ang hirap na pag sinusulat...

bike - marunong ako mag bike...yung regular padyak at andar...pero gusto ko talaga yung tipong pang X Games...yung nag papatalon ng bike...bike stunts...basta yung mga ganun...

skateboard - marunong din ako mag skateboard pero yung usual lang...oo...gusto ko yung pang X Games din...

swimming - alam ko marunong na ako pero hindi ko pa talaga na try yung totoo...hehehe...kung baga i need a formal training para maayos yung swimming "form" ko...yeah right...

web design - ito ang weird...dahil isa akong web developer pero hindi ako marunong mag design...mabagal mag process ang creative juices ko pag dating sa design...inggit nga ako sa ibang web developer dahil marunong silang mag design at marunong din silang mag code...ay buhay...

gitara or any instrument - hindi na nga ako marunong kumanta pati ba naman to...nag pa turo ako dati nito sa pinsan ko pero walang nangyari...mukhang hindi talaga sa music ang forte ko...hehehe...hindi ata ako sa "arts"...

x-treme sport or hobbies - ang dami ng nag lipana na mga ganito pero ni isa wala ako...

wala talaga ako ma isip na kakaibang talent or skill ko...sa madaling salita...useless...

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“Sleep na kami,gudnyt dad! I love you! Im feeling ok now,d na masakit lalamunan ko.”
06-12-2006

This past few weeks kasi my bebe is not feeling well. it’s sad na wala ako sa tabi niya to take care of her and alexx while she takes a rest. Syempre may sakit na ang bebe ko at kailangan niya pa bantayan ang baby naming medyo makulit, sobra naman yun. Baka hindi siya gumaling agad pag ganun. Big disappointment lang in my part kasi wala ako dun para alagaan siya at bantayan ang baby namin. Sana kahit papano I prove something to myself na im changing na.

“Twice mo na ako natatouch dad! 2mu2lo luha ko syo…thank you!”
06-12-2006

mmm…actually I don’t know the reason kung bakit siya na touch, hindi naman kasi sinabi ng bebe ko. Anyway, you’re welcome bebe.

“Thank you dad! Wawa naman baby ko tlagang bumaba pa para maload ako.”
06-12-2006

Nag pa load kasi ang bebe ko sa akin, eh dito kasi sa lucky plaza lang puwede bumili ng globe card. Timing na kailangan ko pumunta din ng Funan to pickup yung wifi router at USB adapter para sa internet sa bahay.

“Wow,nagbago na asawa ko ah,natuto ng gumising ng maaga…bye pogi!:-D ingat ka! Love u…”

Nag SMS kasi ang bebe ko ng sobrang aga, I think before mag 7 yun. Nag reply ako, I told her na paalis na ako bahay to go to work. Kaya yun…kasi dati late ako lagi pumasok sa office.

2 Michaels

mmm…this past few days, iniisip ko kung bakit ganito kami ng bebe ko…alam ko medyo gasgas na to…pero sa buhay wala naman perfect na relationship…which is true…na isip ko lang yung mga arguments naming dalawa…tama naman yung mga points niya regarding sa akin at hindi ko kinokontra yun…lalo na yung sinabi niya na hindi na daw ako malambing…nawala na daw yung sweetness ko…at kailangan pa daw niya hingin ang lahat ng mga to…

just to give you a background…kala kasi ng mga nakaka kilala sa amin na ok kaming couple…but nah…we’re the usual couple…may ups and downs sa relationship…pero this past months or years mostly na sa downs kami…because since the beginning it was all my fault…I will not go down to the details dahil sa amin na lang yun…

bottom line…nawala nga ba ang pagiging malambing ko at pagiging sweet ko…nag bago ba talaga ako at ayaw ko lang tanggapin na isang katotohanan na to…siguro nga…hindi naman ako ganito dati…I think…magka iba ba si Michael Gimenez at Michael Philip Bien…nag grow ba or naging insensitive lang…so many questions…up until now wala pa din ako masagot…hindi ko pa rin mahanap ang lahat…

share ko lang to...i got this from a blog din...pahiram muna...

“when you give someone your time,
You are giving them a portion of your life that you’ll never get back.
Your time is your life.
That is why the greatest gift you can give someone is your time.
Relationships take time and effort, and the best way to spell love is T-I-M-E
Because the essence of love is not what we think or do or provide for others,
But how much we give of ourselves.”

“God gives us this trials knowing we could overcome it.”

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Thursday…Friday…then weekend…that’s life here in Singapore for me…just waiting for the weekends to come...this week I’m completely bored here in the office…I didn’t do anything even I have some task to finish before my TL comes back on the 12th….but nah…it can wait…hehehe…

A good example that I’m completely bored here in the office was yesterday…from 8:15 am up to 5:30 pm, I just read some forums, blogs, chat, and other “petiks” task…hehehe…

Besides that I’m bored, another factor why I can’t do anything here in the office is that I’m sleepy…I can’t concentrate because my eyes wants to shut off…hehehe

Shocks…is this for real…nag se-senti ako? Bumabalik na ang pagiging senti ko…bumabalik na ang dating ako…mmm…